Scales tipped
158 days. That was all the more time Goose was given on this earth once she was diagnosed.
Today it has been 159 days since she was stolen from me.
The scales have now tipped.
She has been gone longer than she was even given to fight all the shit that was thrown at her.
And I continue to sit here and ask why.
Why her?
Why us?
Why now?
Why couldn't he have waited until she was older if he was going to do this?
Give us more time to know and love Lucy.
Not even three years isn't fair.
It never would have been fair really.
But maybe more fair?
There were so many things that she never got to experience.
So many things she should have done and seen still.
Today it has been 159 days since she was stolen from me.
The scales have now tipped.
She has been gone longer than she was even given to fight all the shit that was thrown at her.
And I continue to sit here and ask why.
Why her?
Why us?
Why now?
Why couldn't he have waited until she was older if he was going to do this?
Give us more time to know and love Lucy.
Not even three years isn't fair.
It never would have been fair really.
But maybe more fair?
There were so many things that she never got to experience.
So many things she should have done and seen still.
She never got to attend preschool.
Attend a sleepover.
Have a school photo taken.
Had a crush.
Fallen in love.
Married.
Had a child.
Grown old.
No.
She only got 1085 days on this earth.
158 of those fighting cancer, fungus, bacteria, viruses, and all the poison required to cure those.
And now she has been gone for 159.
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| I love you, my Goosey goo. You will forever be my baby girl. |
