My first trip around the sun without you.

My Lucy,

Big Mamas. Goosey girl. My Sunshine. 

There are no words worthy of the pain I feel without you here. We should be planning your fourth birthday. Going on preschool field trips. Going to Target for no reason and getting Starbucks or milkshakes (shhhh, just don't tell daddy!) you should be chasing Isaac around, helping keep him entertained while the bigs are at school. There are so many things we should be doing. I miss you more than any words or actions could ever express. My heart will never be whole again. I do not know how I have made it the past 365 days. I have no idea how I will continue for however long my body can sustain on this earth. I can only hope that you are truly happy and free. And that one day, you will be in my arms again. You are the bravest and strongest little girl I will ever know.

I miss you. I love you. 

You are forever my baby girl.

The last birthday she would celebrate here on earth with us.